my facade

I actually don't know how to start this post. I usually start my blog with an event. But I'll use this to explain myself since this is a private blog anyway. Too much things has happened to me and I can't refuse to spill it out cause if I don't? I might loose chance and then regret it.

To start:
WHO'S KAREN BEFORE?
Nung junior ako, lage akong wala sa bahay. I always spend money going to the places I wished to go. I spend all my money just to buy all the things that I want. Dateh, pag naisip kong magtrip. I don't care kahit may masagasaan ako. Bakit? kase hindi ko naman gagawin un SAYO kung di mo ginawa saken eh. I learned how to greed and pushed people down and make them beg and say sorry. Kung kilala mo ko, alam mo na marunong akong magpatawad at hindi ako nagbibilang ng kasalanan saken. I always FORGIVE AND FORGET. Minsan lang ako lalaban sayo, but when that SOMETIMES came, I'll make sure you'll get into my nerves and show you your downfall. Karen before, sobrang impulsive kea minsan napapahamak. Once nga, napagtripan na ko ng isang group. Dahil lang sa nanligaw saken ung ex nung kamember nila. DARN! ano bang kasalanan ko dun?. Wala kong care kung may group ka. Isali mo ko dyan? Well don't bother! cause I won't waste my time joining such groups and fraternity.

Karen before, laging absent. Laging late, pero I know where I go. So don't tell me where am i supposed to be, don't made up just to bring me down. Kc pag di mo ko napabagsak. YOU'LL SEE.

Freshman pa lang ako, lapitin na ko ng away, minsan nga matignan ko lng. Mamaya maya kaaway na tingin sakin. Bakit ba? masama bang tumingin. That's your problem. I wont get insecure of you. Bakit? porket kilala ako kagad sa school kahit freshman pa lang ako. Gagawan mo ko ng issue? NO way! i won't bother. YOU CAN ALWAYS SAY WHATEVER YOU WANT. YOU CAN MAKE THEM BELIEVE YOU. BUT ONE THING'S FOR SURE, I KNOW I DON'T DO THIS AND THAT, SO DON'T EXPECT ME TO ADMIT THINGS I NEVER DID. I won't give a damn. Kase pag alam kong mali ako, I know how to say sorry.

One thing I am proud to say about myself is. I am spoiled BUT I never DRINK and never GOT DRUNK. that's one thing you can't put on me. You can stain on my name, pero whatever you do to yourself GOD knows who's telling the truth.

You can hear the most discouraging thing about me. PERO KUNG KILALA MO AKO. YOU WON'T BELIEVE ANY GOSSIPS. YOU WON'T GIVE A DAMN ON THEM. YOU'LL JUST MOVE FORWARD AND BE THERE WITH ME.

YES, I've got 2 boyfriends straight. Both doesn't last as we tell ourselves. But, I NEVER GAVE MYSELF TO ANYONE. WHICH I KNOW, THEY JUST DON"T DESERVED IT.TO THEM, WHOM I CAN'T TRUST?. I won't play clean. yes, I kissed them but that's it. I will never ever do something that will burry my dignity. MAY MARIRINIG KAU SAKANILA. PERO ANO BANG ALAM NILA SA NGYARE?WALA DIBA? so DON'T GIVE A DAMN.




YOU CAN TRUST YOUR EYES, BUT NOT YOUR EARS. MAKES SENSE ON THAT.

it's me. who truly know myself. HIndi sya, hindi sila. AKO LANG..

Gagawa ako ng masama, pero gagawin ko un para sa iba. I won't benefit on that deed. It's them. I'll let them use me. MAKUNTENTO KA LANG.

they can always set me up on things that can stain me. Like putting an iPOD on my stuffs and then papalabasin na ako ung may gawa. WHAT A CLICHE. WHAT A WASTE. yan lang ba kaya nyong gawin para mapabagsak ako? WELL sorry ka! I WONT ADMIT ANYTHING UNLESS I REALLY DID IT.

I am pranct. Minsan sobra, pero kahit alam kong sobra hindi ko titigilan. Para lang matauhan ka sa ginagawa mo.

MABAIT AKO. HINDI AKO LUMALABAN KAHIT TAPAKAN NA AKO. pero si karen.. pag napuno.. ASAHAN MO ang HELL. Minsan lang ako LALABAN. pero hindi mo ko mapapaamin sa BAGAY NA HINDI KO GINAWA at GAGAWIN.

Kahit harap harapan mo pa kong tapakan. OK lang sakin. Hindi kita lalabanan. I'll just live and let GOD do the will. If your insecure just because lots of GUYS and people notice me. Why don't you make your own scene para mapansin ka? hindi naman ako nagpapapansin eh. I show them How natural I am. That's why. pero kung gagamitin mo ko para MAKAGAWA ng scene mo. NO WAY! I wont allow you to used my name. Wag kang papansin, MAKE YOUR OWN LIFE.GET A LIFE.

THAT's KAREN. NO MORE. NO LESS.
Tatanggapin naman kita eh kahit sino ka man. Hindi ako namimili ng kakaibiganin. wag lng ung FRIENDS who's gonna put you down secretly? is that what a friend means for you? I don't care about the fame I have. What's fame if you don't have real friends? what's fame if that fame will tear you? NO! i don't care about fame if that's fame that will tear me. Sayo na yan. Di ko naman kailangan yan para mabuhay eh. ONE SIMPLE THING I WANT IN MY LIFE. REAL THINGS. REAL COMPANY. and STOP BIOTHERING AND STAINING ME. I'll forgive you kakalimutn ko ung kaslanan mo, pero wag mong i-take advantage yung chance na bingay ko sayo para maging GOOD FRIENDS tayo. Tiy can always have the fame that your longing but friend like me? I DON'T THINK SO.

I just want to live my simple life with simple dreams. WAKE UP.


** whatever's written here is my facade. You want to comment? your free to comment on the comment box. Kung ayaw mong paniwalaan then it's up to you, I respect your decision of not believing this. Just respect this as well. I WONT PLEASE you. I DON'T JUDGE ONE'S WORTH THROUGH THEIR CHARACTER. I DON'T REJECT. I RESPECT,,



-- KAREN